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J called me New Year's Eve just as I was getting dressed to go meet someone new on South Beach. I felt a pang of guilt. But he still hasn't apologized nor given me a more thorough explanation for his abrupt move. A week ago he told me he was coming back to FL -- but just passing through then heading back to PR. I don't even want to see him. For what? What's the point? I've started dating again, revived my POF profile, and am trying to find someone to help me move on from this lackluster situation. We all want love. I moved down here not expecting much or even seriously looking for a relationship then J hurled me into one only to leave me rejected and jaded. So now I'm in a weird emotional space, where everything feels numb and no one makes me feel anything. I just don't want to be bothered with feelings, I just want to go out and focus on school. I plan on blogging once a week just so that there is some record of my time in Florida. Who knows if I'll stay after graduation next year?!
30 Goals in 30 Days: Updates and More
8 years ago
